It’s positive!!!

I have been dragging myself too long to write this post, part one of my pregnancy journey. Don’t blame me, blame pregnancy hormone, pregnancy sickness and the last one, blame this computer room that dosen’t has enough oxigent for me to inhale.

Some of you that know me and my husband this past 3 years, may know may not know our journey about having a baby.To cut the story short, after the plan was changed or postponed due to moving to Toronto from Halifax, we started it again. Well, I would say I was the one who prepared it first by didn’t take any medication for my face/skin. I do have a severe agne problem and had taken some medication for a while, and completely stopped it about more than one year ago. This agne medication (prescribed by doctor) is a big no no when you plan to have a baby (I won’t explaint it here, do googling if you are interested or curious about this matter).

I read somewhere sometimes ago, at least take 6 months to clean your body from any medication that can cause child birth defect before you & your couple seriuosly want to conceive. After I didn’t take that medication, surprise surprise… those agne start party on my face,again. *annoyed* but it’s okay, seriously, it’s okay!

That is one of the physically action that we/i took. The other was book appointment with our new family doctor, who knows that we have some problem with our body right? Just ask for check up to make sure everything is ready. But before the scheduled date, I was postive pregnant, 5 weeks!

One that I want to share is more about my mental during this journey, erhh.. I mean the journey about wanting a baby. Since I was very young, let’s say around 10 years old, I already can carry a newborn baby. I didn’t afraid, everytime I had a chance to carry or play with them, I’ll do. I just love baby and toddler, the cute one of course *cough cough*. By telling this, I would like you to know that one day I want my very own baby, the little human that can call me mommy.

After I got married, and like other major married couples, you want or probably you will have a baby, yay! Everytime if some friends got married, the next thing in 3 months you will heard is they are expecting! I’m happy for them,  they make it looks like so easy, like it was an automatic machine, married, wait 3 months and voila you are 2 months pregnant, LOL.

—- Above post I wrote on Aug 22, 2013 (4 month pregnant) —-

And now Aug 12, 2014, almost a year later, I will continue to write this post, haha

I remember that early morning when I did pregnancy test using drug store pregnancy test pack, it was around 4am when I needed to pee. They said the first pee in the morning is a very good sample and I really wanted to know the result and let Hadi know, if I skip this moment the next pee would be around 7/8am and he probably already left to go to office.

Back to around 1 week before that morning, It actually my ‘red’ due date. My period is VERY regular each month, well maybe miss 1 or maximum 2 days. That week was the longest week ever in my life. To be honest, I wasn’t expect to get pregnant that month but waiting the period to come was killing me. Sometime I felt like my back bone was iching, I felt tired, and those were sign of the period will coming soon. Everytime I went to pee, I was so scary and worry, deep down in my heart I was praying, please… please… don’t you ever dare to show up! haha.

After 4 days passed, I REALLY wanted to do the test! I only had 1 pregnancy tester left in my bathroom drawer, it’s like a bullet, my precious bullet, the last one that I hope I used it and all is WORTH! When Hadi knew I want to test it, he said just wait until it reach 1 week. He probably didn’t want to see my sad face, 3 days earlier, haha. Yeah, everytime the result came negative, I will run to him and said, no luck this month with my no hope face, haha.

I remembered one night we went to watching a movie. On the way to the theater when I was driving I felt something came out down there. “Oh shoot” I said to him, “I think I got my period”. He suggested we go home and canceled the movie. I said “No, I will check when we reach theater and decided later” but on my mind, I was pretty sure, that ugly red face is coming, I plan just to stuck a bunch of tissue and proceed to watch a movie to convert my anger!!! Sorry if this post contain some yucky stuff, lol.

Hey, It was nothing down there! hooray…. Let’s watch the movie. I forgot though what movie we watched that night. I just remember I ate popcorn and drank pop and my tummy was bloated!

I quiet surprise I could be that patient, waiting until I reach 1 week late. Usually I test on the due date even a day before. Yeah yeah, blame that pregancy tester that said they can give an acurate result 5 days before the period! When I told one of my closest friend, she was the one that persued me to do the test NOW! “Do it now and let me know the result” she texted me. I replied “Nah, I will wait the next day” I was that patient, maybe I just don’t want to be sad so fast, let me ‘enjoy’ this late period moment, haha.

So, that 4 am when I did the test, I peed on the stick if you don’t know how does preganacy tester works, lol and we need to wait until the result appear in the tester’s screen. I put the stick on top the sink and continue cleaning. Oh my… I tried to not let myself to had a hope even only little tiny hope. I just ‘blank’ myself and pick it up to see the result.

And this what I saw:

Tester1I couldn’t believe my eyes!!! I shocked, I looked it again, doubted a bit that the line was a bit blur but OVER JOY when the thick line was the vertical one! This cannot go wrong!!! Yay!!! I got out from bathroom, make a noise to made Hadi woke up and told him the good news! I want to record his expreesion but it’s still too dark, lol.

Couple days later, I bought other tester pack. Just want to make sure! When all was well and confirmed, we started to spread the news to our family and friends. We just too happy not to share this news. And this was what I sent to them:

tester2And the journey begins…

I had posted my experienced in operation room here when I gave birth and plan to write another pregnancy related post about My oh my… challenging pregnancy, yup I almost got pre-ecclamsia and had to stayed at hosital for 2 weeks when I was in my 29 weeks pregnancy, not mention about countless hospital visit after that. Wish I am not too lazy or even worst , forrgot the detail story to share it here.


Ps. We went to Etobicoke’s farmers market the other day

Olivia’s 1st Outdoor PRO Photo Session

Model: Olivia Muliawan | Age: 7 Month | Gender: Female | Weight: +/- 15lbs | Heigh: +/- 70cm | Eye Color: Dark Brown | Hair Color: Black

Photographer: Mommy | Assistant Photographer: Grandma | Stylist: Mommy & Olivia | Wardrobe: Personal | Accessories: Personal

Location: Highpark, Toronto, Ontario, Canada | Date: Aug 6, 2014

Camera: Canon EOS 7D | Lens: 50mm F1.8

combo1 combo2 combo3 combo4 combo5Mommy’s NOTE:

I used to work at Sears photo studio in Halifax around 2 years ago and 90% of my customer was parents with babies! Now I know  and can related when they said “Oh, I like that one better, It show her/his personality” or “I want that one, that’s how she/he smiles” or something like that, when I sat with them in front of the computer to look all their baby pictures I took that day. Sometimes, I just didn’t understand, for me that picture probably little bit blur, the composision was odd, or just simply the baby face wasn’t cute enough like other pictures in my opinion. BUT at the end they chose whatever they liked and as a professional photographer, as long as your customer happy, that’s enough and consider as success ^^. So, when I look all the pictures I took this afternoon, no matter how bad the quality (exposure, angle, etc) of the picture, I LIKE it just because Olivia so cute on that pic, haha.

We had so much fun during the photo session, I wasn’t prepare so much since this was our first professional photo session and I didn’t know what will going on. Turned out not so bad, I just went a bit crazy to made Olivia smiles.

After so long I refused to take a picture using my DSLR camera and getting comfortable with Handphone camera, it felt so good to be back to ‘heavy bulky blacky camera’ haha! Definitely will have more photo session with her in the future. Excited!

Olivia’s NOTE:

I didn’t know what’s mommy doing in the park. She kept calling my name and made a fake snizzing sound, I guessed she tried to make me smile, of course I smile, she was so silly. We had fun in the park, we go to this place so often, since I was a baby, errhh… I mean when I was a little baby, I am a big baby now. But today visit was a bit special, mommy let me sit on the ground, she even made me lay down on my tummy, She knew I hate this position but I gave it a try, actually I did it so I could had a chance to pull some grass though. haha.

Grandma looked so happy too, She made sure I wore my pretty headband. When mommy stopped looking at me through some funny black box, I snacking with Grandma. It called picnic in the park, I like it… I like drinking my milk and looking to the trees, they are so high and greeny.

Mommy said we will going out more often before the weather getting cold. I am looking forward to have fun with mommy and grandma in our next visit to the park!

Pick Your Own – Cherry

Last Sunday we went to Cherry Avenue Farms, to picking some cherries and it was so crowded! What I mean by crowded is CROWDED! Like more than an hundred cars on their “temporary” parking lot!

Red Dark Cherry ready to pick!

Red Dark Cherry ready to pick!

This was the second time for me to pick cherry, the first time was in Halifax and on that day, it was only us (a group of 10 people) and several people in total not more than 25 people and 5 cars!

That’s why before we enter the farm, we saw a guy standing on the road, in front of the farm to give direction to all cars that seemed wanting to go to the farm. I told my husband “Wah, this farm so professional, they even hired a parking guy” and uh oh… when our car finally entered the farm, what we saw was more parking guys and an  hundreds of cars, wow… I immediately felt a bit worry, do they still have a cherry left for us to pick???

For every person enter the farm, we need to pay $4/adult. That amount will deduct to our purchase of the fruit at the end. On that day the cherry was $2.25/lbs, for every cherry you eat inside the farm is FREE. So actually it’s pretty good deal, not mention about the experienced we had after that.

This certainly new and interesting activity for my mom! She so excited to pick her own cherry and not bother to ask me, she just picked picked until I checked and uh oh, she picked the one that not ready to pick yet, so funny! She insisted that it was red enough to pick, haha until I told her, this was Red Dark kind of cherry, must pick the one that very dark red one. LOL

The farm truck brought us the the centre of the farm, where the cherry wasn’t pick yet, it ran every 10 minutes and it was convenience. Olivia enjoyed all the time we spent on the farms, she even not asking her milk when it was already the time, haha. We end up pick 5 lbs in total that cost us $11.25. So I lost $0.75, haha… because you pay when you over pick but not get change if you under pick. But it’s okay… Husband and mom ate a lot in the farm, haha.

We will return to this farm to pick another fruits. They have nectarine, plum, peach and apricots, just looking at the fruits already make me happy and excited to pick! Next 2 weeks is a good timeI guess, who’s wanna join us? 🙂

Even the farm was crowded but the whole experienced was smooth because they did a great job to managed the whole process from parking to weighting the fruits. The only downside was they didn’t have a restaurant or cafe. The one in Halifax has a small restaurant that sell not only lunch type of meals also some sweets like pie and cookies even the farm way smaller than this one.

They would earn more money if they have the restaurant, people will tired after picking a fruits and at least need some cold drink or buy some fresh home baked pie contains some fruits from the farm or maybe baby customers need to rest to have their milk, haha.

Lemme help you momma!!!

Lemme help you momma!!!

Olivia is not so impressed, lol

Olivia was not so impressed in this picture, lol

Happy Baby on the farm 'train'!

Happy Baby on the farm ‘truck

Too high? Don't worry... use the stair!

Too high? Don’t worry… use the stair!

Cherry Avenue Farm

4303 Cherry Avenue,Vineland,  Ontario,L0R 2E0

Washroom: Yes (Men & Women)

Restaurant: Not available

Parking Lot: Yes