Love Power Dalam Sepotong Tempe

Tempe in ziplock (homemade) photo: yulianatan.com

If you tell me ten years ago that I will make Tempe by myself, I will look into your eyes, smile, poke your forehead with my index finger and say “Are you crazy? What on earth that you think I am ABLE to make homemade Tempe OR in what occasion that I NEED to make Tempe?!”

And here we are… June,  two thousand seventeen!!! I made my very first homemade Tempe! *tap my own shoulder* (you should see my face when I open my oven door to check the Tempe after 2 days, I believe my face glowing and my eyes almost pop out).

So Yutan, YOU are able to make Tempe now, what is the occasion that in 2017 you decided to make Tempe? What’s the urgency? You just challenging yourself or what?

Well, see the title above? All because of love. The mother love that breaks all the barriers. My daughter, Olivia who is 3 years old, love eating Tempe. Recently she is so picky about food. And Tempe is one of very limited foods that she willing to eat, happily, without any drama or left over.

Of course I can go to some Asian grocery stores for the Tempe but frozen Tempe in those stores are not fresh and don’t taste good in my opinion. In Toronto we do have fresh (by order) Tempe that taste good, very good in fact. But, it so far away from my place. So, I left no choice but have to be able to make one by myself.

I learned how to make it through some YouTube videos, including how to make the Tempe starter (ragi). I am so impressed by the end result and so grateful for those people who share the recipes online so people like me can make it.

The hardest process was to remove the soy bean’s skin. No easy or fastest way except if you have the machine. Believe me, I went through so many YouTube videos and websites and I decided to stop searching and start to peeling the skin 🙂

Lesson learned from this achievement is we are able to do almost anything beyond our comfort zone. We just need some purposes or motivations. If we can get some support, that would be even better.

I still cannot believe I made Tempe! Are you kidding me? Tempe? In Canada? In 2017? Haha.

Fresh Tempe with homemade Tempe Starter (ragi). Photo: Yulianatan.com

YuTan (the Tempe lover as well) 💙





It’s positive!!!

I have been dragging myself too long to write this post, part one of my pregnancy journey. Don’t blame me, blame pregnancy hormone, pregnancy sickness and the last one, blame this computer room that dosen’t has enough oxigent for me to inhale.

Some of you that know me and my husband this past 3 years, may know may not know our journey about having a baby.To cut the story short, after the plan was changed or postponed due to moving to Toronto from Halifax, we started it again. Well, I would say I was the one who prepared it first by didn’t take any medication for my face/skin. I do have a severe agne problem and had taken some medication for a while, and completely stopped it about more than one year ago. This agne medication (prescribed by doctor) is a big no no when you plan to have a baby (I won’t explaint it here, do googling if you are interested or curious about this matter).

I read somewhere sometimes ago, at least take 6 months to clean your body from any medication that can cause child birth defect before you & your couple seriuosly want to conceive. After I didn’t take that medication, surprise surprise… those agne start party on my face,again. *annoyed* but it’s okay, seriously, it’s okay!

That is one of the physically action that we/i took. The other was book appointment with our new family doctor, who knows that we have some problem with our body right? Just ask for check up to make sure everything is ready. But before the scheduled date, I was postive pregnant, 5 weeks!

One that I want to share is more about my mental during this journey, erhh.. I mean the journey about wanting a baby. Since I was very young, let’s say around 10 years old, I already can carry a newborn baby. I didn’t afraid, everytime I had a chance to carry or play with them, I’ll do. I just love baby and toddler, the cute one of course *cough cough*. By telling this, I would like you to know that one day I want my very own baby, the little human that can call me mommy.

After I got married, and like other major married couples, you want or probably you will have a baby, yay! Everytime if some friends got married, the next thing in 3 months you will heard is they are expecting! I’m happy for them,  they make it looks like so easy, like it was an automatic machine, married, wait 3 months and voila you are 2 months pregnant, LOL.

—- Above post I wrote on Aug 22, 2013 (4 month pregnant) —-

And now Aug 12, 2014, almost a year later, I will continue to write this post, haha

I remember that early morning when I did pregnancy test using drug store pregnancy test pack, it was around 4am when I needed to pee. They said the first pee in the morning is a very good sample and I really wanted to know the result and let Hadi know, if I skip this moment the next pee would be around 7/8am and he probably already left to go to office.

Back to around 1 week before that morning, It actually my ‘red’ due date. My period is VERY regular each month, well maybe miss 1 or maximum 2 days. That week was the longest week ever in my life. To be honest, I wasn’t expect to get pregnant that month but waiting the period to come was killing me. Sometime I felt like my back bone was iching, I felt tired, and those were sign of the period will coming soon. Everytime I went to pee, I was so scary and worry, deep down in my heart I was praying, please… please… don’t you ever dare to show up! haha.

After 4 days passed, I REALLY wanted to do the test! I only had 1 pregnancy tester left in my bathroom drawer, it’s like a bullet, my precious bullet, the last one that I hope I used it and all is WORTH! When Hadi knew I want to test it, he said just wait until it reach 1 week. He probably didn’t want to see my sad face, 3 days earlier, haha. Yeah, everytime the result came negative, I will run to him and said, no luck this month with my no hope face, haha.

I remembered one night we went to watching a movie. On the way to the theater when I was driving I felt something came out down there. “Oh shoot” I said to him, “I think I got my period”. He suggested we go home and canceled the movie. I said “No, I will check when we reach theater and decided later” but on my mind, I was pretty sure, that ugly red face is coming, I plan just to stuck a bunch of tissue and proceed to watch a movie to convert my anger!!! Sorry if this post contain some yucky stuff, lol.

Hey, It was nothing down there! hooray…. Let’s watch the movie. I forgot though what movie we watched that night. I just remember I ate popcorn and drank pop and my tummy was bloated!

I quiet surprise I could be that patient, waiting until I reach 1 week late. Usually I test on the due date even a day before. Yeah yeah, blame that pregancy tester that said they can give an acurate result 5 days before the period! When I told one of my closest friend, she was the one that persued me to do the test NOW! “Do it now and let me know the result” she texted me. I replied “Nah, I will wait the next day” I was that patient, maybe I just don’t want to be sad so fast, let me ‘enjoy’ this late period moment, haha.

So, that 4 am when I did the test, I peed on the stick if you don’t know how does preganacy tester works, lol and we need to wait until the result appear in the tester’s screen. I put the stick on top the sink and continue cleaning. Oh my… I tried to not let myself to had a hope even only little tiny hope. I just ‘blank’ myself and pick it up to see the result.

And this what I saw:

Tester1I couldn’t believe my eyes!!! I shocked, I looked it again, doubted a bit that the line was a bit blur but OVER JOY when the thick line was the vertical one! This cannot go wrong!!! Yay!!! I got out from bathroom, make a noise to made Hadi woke up and told him the good news! I want to record his expreesion but it’s still too dark, lol.

Couple days later, I bought other tester pack. Just want to make sure! When all was well and confirmed, we started to spread the news to our family and friends. We just too happy not to share this news. And this was what I sent to them:

tester2And the journey begins…

I had posted my experienced in operation room here when I gave birth and plan to write another pregnancy related post about My oh my… challenging pregnancy, yup I almost got pre-ecclamsia and had to stayed at hosital for 2 weeks when I was in my 29 weeks pregnancy, not mention about countless hospital visit after that. Wish I am not too lazy or even worst , forrgot the detail story to share it here.

YuTan

Ps. We went to Etobicoke’s farmers market the other day





Olivia’s 1st Outdoor PRO Photo Session

Model: Olivia Muliawan | Age: 7 Month | Gender: Female | Weight: +/- 15lbs | Heigh: +/- 70cm | Eye Color: Dark Brown | Hair Color: Black

Photographer: Mommy | Assistant Photographer: Grandma | Stylist: Mommy & Olivia | Wardrobe: Personal | Accessories: Personal

Location: Highpark, Toronto, Ontario, Canada | Date: Aug 6, 2014

Camera: Canon EOS 7D | Lens: 50mm F1.8

combo1 combo2 combo3 combo4 combo5Mommy’s NOTE:

I used to work at Sears photo studio in Halifax around 2 years ago and 90% of my customer was parents with babies! Now I know  and can related when they said “Oh, I like that one better, It show her/his personality” or “I want that one, that’s how she/he smiles” or something like that, when I sat with them in front of the computer to look all their baby pictures I took that day. Sometimes, I just didn’t understand, for me that picture probably little bit blur, the composision was odd, or just simply the baby face wasn’t cute enough like other pictures in my opinion. BUT at the end they chose whatever they liked and as a professional photographer, as long as your customer happy, that’s enough and consider as success ^^. So, when I look all the pictures I took this afternoon, no matter how bad the quality (exposure, angle, etc) of the picture, I LIKE it just because Olivia so cute on that pic, haha.

We had so much fun during the photo session, I wasn’t prepare so much since this was our first professional photo session and I didn’t know what will going on. Turned out not so bad, I just went a bit crazy to made Olivia smiles.

After so long I refused to take a picture using my DSLR camera and getting comfortable with Handphone camera, it felt so good to be back to ‘heavy bulky blacky camera’ haha! Definitely will have more photo session with her in the future. Excited!

Olivia’s NOTE:

I didn’t know what’s mommy doing in the park. She kept calling my name and made a fake snizzing sound, I guessed she tried to make me smile, of course I smile, she was so silly. We had fun in the park, we go to this place so often, since I was a baby, errhh… I mean when I was a little baby, I am a big baby now. But today visit was a bit special, mommy let me sit on the ground, she even made me lay down on my tummy, She knew I hate this position but I gave it a try, actually I did it so I could had a chance to pull some grass though. haha.

Grandma looked so happy too, She made sure I wore my pretty headband. When mommy stopped looking at me through some funny black box, I snacking with Grandma. It called picnic in the park, I like it… I like drinking my milk and looking to the trees, they are so high and greeny.

Mommy said we will going out more often before the weather getting cold. I am looking forward to have fun with mommy and grandma in our next visit to the park!