Olivia’s First Prayer

Your name always in my prayer ?

Tonight, Wednesday, July 18, 2017.

Olivia said her own prayer before sleep.

I usually ask her to pray together. On a good night, she would listen to me carefully until the end and says “amen”. But, on a not so good night, she would just won’t listening and keeps saying “no, no, no”.

My prayer is simple.

Starting with “Jesus…” and I will tell what I and Olivia have been doing the whole day, like “today, Olivia went to school and met Koko Ben” or “Olivia went to playground and market” something simple like those, I used word that familiar to her so she would understand what I am talking/praying about.

And we will ended the pray together by saying “amen”. That’s it. Almost every night and nap time in the afternoon if she is taking a nap at home.

But tonight was different. First, I thought tonight will be one of the not so good night. When I started “Jesus…” she stoped me. “Wait, wait..” I stopped. She continued “Jesus…” I thought she wanted to pray like in the church which they follow each word from the pastor, but second before I continued, she said “(mumbling) … market (mumbling) …” (only “market” word that I could understand from her short prayer.

WHAT…..????? We did go to the market aka grocery store today. Oh my… I am so happy and grateful that she got it. I keep praying no matter she understand it or not, I keep praying no matter she like it or not. And tonight does prove one thing. Never give up to pass something good to your children even though in the meantime they don’t get it or they don’t like it. They surely like a white paper and it’s up to you to put what colours in that paper . I am not saying that I would take credit for her milestone, only God and God alone deserve all credits. I just have to introduce her to Jesus, tell the gospel, and prepare her to be a believer. May God helps me, guides me and strengthens me in this process.

Olivia, 3,5 years old, has a speech delay, said her first prayer tonight. Thank you Lord, for your love & blessing. ??

Joyful mama.

When She Felt Asleep In My Arms

When She Fall Asleep In My Arms

When She Felt Asleep In My Arms – Olivia (13 months)

Since she was a little tiny baby, I rocked her in my arms every time she needs to take her nap or sleep at night. Most people who knew this fact will immediately told me that this is not a good habit, for her or for me or for whoever look after her. The reason they told me quite reasonable, like baby who falls asleep by themselves will sleep more deep and long rather then they full asleep in our arm and wake up find out they are in another place. Not mention the time consuming when they refuse to sleep and the older they are, the heavier they will be. And so on and so on. I get it. I GOT IT. And I respect their opinions and advise.

But I also believe every baby is different. What works for them maybe doesn’t work for another family. I don’t mind rocking Olivia every time she goes to sleep. Okay just once in a while when I was so tired, body and emotionally and she refused to sleep even it’s the time already. I’ll impatience and all, but what I want to say is I don’t mind at all since she is just the only child I had and the moment we had during this rocking time also see her fall asleep without need to cry her eyes out, makes me happy and accomplished.

Since one or two weeks after her first birthday, most of the time she doesn’t want me to carries her anymore, especially during the night. After her milk she will “ask” to be putting down to her crib, she didn’t fall asleep immediately but she will fall asleep by herself after a while. I am happy but a bit broken heart actually. This scenario doesn’t work when she feels it’s not a time to sleep but when the time is right, all going so smooth.

In a blink of an eye, she probably doesn’t want me to kiss or hug her anymore (what I mean with kiss and hugs here is like kiss her 1million times while hug her so tight so she cannot run away). Baby is growing too fast. People said it all the time but I think all mothers never realized how FAST are.

I would like to encourage all mothers out there to not be afraid to not listen and agree with people opinion or whatever they read on parenting books & magazines. Just do what is work for your children, we know better than other people about our children because we watch them 24 hours. And also what so called “mother’s instinct”.

It’s an up and down journey to raising a little human but I’ll always cherish and store as much memories as possible into my brain & heart, so in the future I still have a lot of “pictures” in  my mind to laugh and smile at.